What was that?? Seriously I do not know

Sometimes there are questions which are just left unanswered for quite a long time. Then you don't even expect answers to come your way. And as you get disturbed and irritated at times by the complexities of these questions you try to forget them and as in my case you wish that they should not even bother you in the future unless and until they present themselves along a solution with them. Even worse when you get into a frame of refrence where you start thinking that you mightn't have even understood the problem completely, so even if somebody else might explain you the solution you won't be able to comprehend his/her words.

But then one day in the middle of the road if you are hit by a thought which takes you off guard and makes you believe that it can atleast show you the way to solve a long awaited unanswered question, you feel blessed. If it can make you believe that it can ensure a smooth transition from a world full of incompleteness to a world which is unknown,mystery in itself but still gives you a feeling of completion, you want to hold that moment and analyse it that as to why it has happened today and not before. Is there anything different and special in the series of activities you have gone through on that day or the last couple of days. And ironically this leads to even more complex questions than what were unanswered.

I was hit by a series of thoughts today. I am saying a series of thoughts because they just strike me one after the other. But which of them was the first one which lead to so many other profound ones and when did it actually start . This is THE mystery. The thoughts were just so profound that they inspired me to the level where I can scribble for the first time. No implicit and explicit arguments can actually explain what happened and the beauty of the intensed thoughts. I think they are like the aggressive waves which signals the vast and peaceful ocean.

With a good convincing power, I had influenced many a decision/opinion of many people whom I had met in the course of my life. Sometimes I may be self-opinionated but still I consider myself fortunate that those opinions were creations of my head and not biased by the prejudices of the society. And today is one of those creations which changed me as a person(atleast on some grounds) and I might have been convinced by myself today.

I will end this by a small poem :-

yeh garmi ki dhoop,
yeh sardi ki chhaon,
aaj sab raas aata hai,
aaj patjhar bhi khilkhilata hai

yeh bheed ka shorgul,
aur kaano mein sugbugahat
fir yeh aawaz na jane kisne lagai,
yeh saz wahi hai,
suron ka samaj wahi hai,
fir bansaria na jane kisne bajai,
dil madhosh hua jata hai,
aaj patjhar bhi khilkhilata hai.